December 2010
“you have the most beautiful soul. and that makes me love you more.”
—stargirl
“in times like these, i crave for a smoke. really really really craving for a smoke.”
—stargirl
i had
wanted one more touch, not of our lips, but of our bodies. just one more.
but i dared not to, for i might not let go.
and you might push me away if i held on too long. so i had to just stand inches away, take in your beautiful smell and hold back.
just hold back. because letting go is easier that way.
i totally
forgot what i was supposed to post. i fucking forgot.
I don't deserve better. I deserve the fucking BEST.
i just
realized that maybe, just maybe, this one sign might be wrong. just this one, just this one time. because more than that, more than all of those signs, is us.
we are what’s more important. you are what’s more important.
“all i wanted was one night, one night where you throw everything away and be with me.”
—
We don't say "dating," we say "talking." Instead of saying "we're in a relationship," we say "we're a thing." We forgot "making love" and learned to say "fucking." It's no wonder our generation doesn't know the meaning of commitment.
FUCKYEAH
“I’m coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith, and that a soft landing is never guaranteed.”
—Sarah Dessen (via eletheowl)
I know, someday, when we’re both old and grey, we will sit in the middle of a bench, with too much space at both ends; hold hands as tight as possible, and say:
“We did it bes, we grew old together.”
“Believe me when I say forever isn’t just a word. It’s a place that we’ll go to, a place where we are headed. Forever and ever and ever, that’s us. Trust me, you just have to believe in us. Whatever it takes, you have my heart.”
—stargirl (day 182)
“Closeness - an intense closeness, really sharing things with each other, silly things, difficult things. That’s all I’ve wanted for us. If we could have that, nothing could hurt us.”
— Samantha Andrews (If Only, 2004)
“I don’t need to be away from you for me to realize how important you are in my life. You are the best most wonderful thing that’s ever happened to me, and I’m not about to let that slip away. I’m holding on to you forever.”
—stargirl, day 182
Things I’m grateful for:
- YOU.
- US.
I've been waiting
for girlfriend’s text for almost a couple of hours now. I hope she’s not as toxic at work tonight. Or maybe she’s thinks I’m already asleep?
Whatever. I just feel bad about making her feel bad. We’re not the type of couple who sleeps on things that make us uncomfortable. At the very least we try to patch things up before moving on to dreamland.
But it’s not always been easy. A lot of things can sometimes get in the way, like, work, or fatigue, or stress. But we always try.
And it’s what I’ve always loved about us two. Even before we’ve become lovers, we are best friends. And that’s what will always come first.
This actually really intrests me. I’ve always wondered if this was actually done on purpose by A.A. Milne (author of Winne the Pooh)
O.o
“Let me just say, there’s no one and nothing else I want more than you. We are forever and ever and ever…the real kind. And let’s have all of them see us and watch us in awe as we grow old together, closer, forever, together.”
—stargirl
“Time does not matter.”
—SATC 2
My high school
barkada (2/8 of it anyway), Samantha and Hazell are here at Sam’s place tonight, and they are just dozing off to dreamland while I while the time away waiting for girlfriend to pick me up. Yay!
Anyway, we just watched SATC 2 and we were laughing out loud at pointing out who in the kada is a Carrie, a Samantha, a Miranda and a Charlotte. They said I was Carrie, the writer, of course. Although I do have to have a change of wardrobe, to be honest. (And a change in the topics I write about.)
And there really isn’t any point in this entry except that I wanted to write something.
And I am conditioning myself to write religiously, as much as I can, on paper or on the web.
Pray for me.
